Motivational Quotes

Motivational Quotes

Today I am posting a summary of all the motivational quotes and inspirational quotes that I have posted on Instagram this last month.  

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You’ve got it
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Keep on track
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Follow your dreams
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Listen to your heart
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Stay true to yourself
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Start Now
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Be Happy
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You are unique
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Walk the road you were meant to
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The power is within
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It’s your choice
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The choice is yours
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Just Believe
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Don’t give up
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You are amazing
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Change your life
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Thoughts are things
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You can’t pour from an empty cup
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Go for it
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You are beautiful
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One life so live it
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Life is an adventure
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It’s good to be different

I do find reading these kinds of things gives me a bit of a kick up the backside that I need.  Sometimes you just get caught up in the day to day life and we just need to stop and be still for a short while remind ourselves of what we are actually capable of.

I am going to be doing some creative visualisation exercises this weekend so next week I’ll let you know how it went.

Another weekend is upon us.  Hope you all have a fantastic weekend whatever you are doing.

Tracey xXx

An Embarrassing Moment

Embarrassing Moment

Well, I have quite a few but the most embarrassing moment that sticks in my mind is what I refer to as the bathroom incident.  Now I can imagine you have all sorts of images running through your head now; with the mention of bathroom and incident and being in the same sentence.  

Location

This incident happened when I lived in Syston, Leicestershire so I must have been in my twenties… I’m surprised I can remember that far back.  I was married at the time which feels like hundreds of years ago now.   Back in the days when I was about 9 stone and thought I was enormously fat lol…. wish I was that fat now!

Incident in the Bathroom

Anyway, I was desperate for a wee and I mean fit to bursting desperate for a wee.  So I obviously legged it upstairs as fast as I could; not quite as fast as Usain Bolt but not far off.  I started doing the “wee jig” which is a cross between an Irish dancer and a   running on the spot kind of thing while trying to undo my belt and get my jeans down.  Yes! high five I got the jeans down followed by underwear and sat on that loo.   Such a great feeling.   You know the one I mean where you can just let go and feel that relief that you made it in time and that you are amazingly talented and deserve at the very least a gold star.  

Here we go

So there I was sitting on the loo feeling fantastic when I saw a huge, massive spider and I mean HUGE no that’s still not right it was HUGE, MASSIVE, MONSTEROUS. What could I do… it was a time for flight or fight.  Well I wasn’t going to fight the spider it would definitely win, it was like the Frank Bruno of spiders so I legged it… yet again.. twice in one day.  I hope you’re impressed because I am.   Anyway, without pulling up my knickers and my jeans I legged it to the top of the stairs (as much as you can do with jeans around your ankles).   Still screaming and shouting as if the world was about to end.   Finally, I managed to get to the top of the stairs still shouting for my husband as I was on my escape mission.  

This is it

I stood there and looked down the stairs.  Relief was the first thing I felt at seeing my husband at the bottom of the stairs.  However, I then noticed the front door was open and he was talking to the salesman at the door.  Well, they both looked up the stairs at exactly the same time to see me stood there in all my glory doing a nice little jig and screaming spider at the top of my voice like a woman possessed. Thankfully the rest is a blur.  But talk about wanting the ground to swallow you up.

I’ve got a few more of those up my sleeve to share with you but at another time.  

What is your most embarrassing moment?

Tracey xXx

What is left on my bucket list

What is left on my bucket list

My bucket list is HUUUGE (I did tell you I don’t get out much) so let us have a little look.  I won’t tell you all of the things on my bucket list so don’t worry as you will probably fall asleep by the end of them.  However, I have been thinking about them a bit though recently; possibly because I will be 48 very soon; 50 is getting closer and closer.

So let us move on to the items on my bucket list:

Learn to ride a horse

This is definitely on my bucket list and maybe one-day even owning one.  I have always loved horses.  There is something so majestic and magical about them.    Such spiritual creatures.  Many years ago I used to volunteer at a disabled riders group which involved leading the horses while the client was sat on the horse.  It was such a moving thing to witness.  These children and also adults reacted in such a positive way just by being in the presence of a horse.  

I remember one individual who had no control of his motor skills. However, as soon as we had got him on the back of the horse he was completely still and had the most incredible big smile on his face.  It was wonderful to witness this and very humbling.  The joy in the clients’ faces was priceless.    

There was a similar situation when I worked at a nursing home and we used to have a donkey sanctuary visit the residents.   We took the donkeys to the residents’ rooms (followed with a spade and a bucket).   I’m not ashamed to say it brought tears to my eyes. Beautiful memories to cherish.

 

Learn to play the piano  

I have always wanted to play the piano so that has always been on my bucket list, but I don’t think I have the hands for it.  They are definitely not long and slender which is probably why I keep doing typos on my phone when texting telling my kids to lick the door instead of locking it.  To be honest to be able to play any instrument would be great.

I remember playing the recorder at school; I enjoyed it at the time but I must have driven my parents mad listening to hundreds of renditions of London’s Burning and Mull of Kintyre.   My grandad was quite musical he would be always on his harmonica.  He also had an electric organ in the front room (the front room was out of bounds and used for Christmas and special occasions only or on nights we lit a coal fire).  Also, he had several Squeezebox things too (sorry I don’t know the correct term for these). 

To fit into a pair of size 12 jeans   

Yes, God, I would love that feeling.  Just getting them over my knees would be amazing lol but to get them on properly – wozer I’d be skipping everywhere.  I am sure there is a correlation with waist size and your age.  I think I put an inch on every year.  It is so difficult at our age as our metabolism is all over the place.  Medication doesn’t help matters either they have caused me to put weight on which is extremely frustrating. It leads to feeling bad about yourself which then leads to comfort eating;  a vicious circle and difficult one to break.  

Get married again

This is definitely on my bucket list as I would love to get married again one day.  Those of you who know me will know what awful relationships I’ve had since moving to Harrogate.  Which is a laugh considering it is supposed to be the happiest place to live in the UK.  Can you believe that? the happiest place indeed… I can assure you that if it is it’s because about 80% of the population are on Prozac!  It’s a good job the 80% aren’t all on viagra or it would be the hardest place to live! – sorry, couldn’t resist that one.

Now before I get married I have to find someone I want to get married to; which has been proving a tad bit difficult.  However, I have had two dates with someone quite recently and will be having a third this weekend fingers crossed.  But it’s a long way from 3 dates to getting married.  But… so far so good.  He doesn’t wear women’s clothes on a weekend, he doesn’t like flashing at strangers and he doesn’t have some extremely weird fetish – that I know about.  

The three I mentioned are actually real people I have spoken to via dating sites.   I met the first one in McDonald’s of all places and oh my god.. he looked like a cross between Alan Titchmarsh and one of the fecking Chuckle brothers! I tell you I could have cried.   Anyway, my dating antics are going to be for a future post.  

So I go back to the beginning to actually find someone I want to spend the rest of my life with and they feel the same way would be heavenly.

Go to the Maldives

I have always wanted to go the Maldive.  I mean how could it not be on my bucket list?  It’s the white sand and crystal clear turquoise blue sea.   I have not had a holiday abroad since 1998 and it was when I was pregnant with my middle child.  Off I went to Lanzarote with my first mistake of a boyfriend.  There are a few other places I would like to go on holiday to.  The Scilly Isles looks nice, some beaches in Scotland look fantastic and the Northumberland coast.  I adore the Isle of Wight and could very easily live there given the chance.  My favourite place there is a village called Bembridge.  

My fingers are crossed that the Maldives will be the place I go on my honeymoon.  I would love to visit the Base Camp at Mount Everest but I know that is very unlikely due to health reasons.  Quite a few years ago I  had a short relationship with someone who used to take climbers to the top of Everest. I also know people die even at base camp due to altitude sickness. 

Learn a foreign language

I feel quite ignorant, ashamed and cross with myself for not being able to speak another language.  It is my own fault as I had French lessons at school and really wish I had paid more attention.  I think it might be something that I will look into for an evening class but I just can’t make my mind up between French and Spanish.  

Make my living from writing

Well, this item on my bucket list has just started.  I’ve just taken the first step of the journey and hopefully will carry on now until the end of time.  

I have recently published a book “why rainbows may cry” and I’ve started this blog. I’ve had so many life experiences so have a lot of things I can draw from both in fiction and non-fiction.  My great great grandfather was John Gersham Greenhough and he was the head of the Baptist Church of England for part of his life.  He wrote a lot of books including one which was a diary of his world trips he undertook in a religious capacity with his wife.  I am currently collecting the books he wrote.  I am no way religious but I am very spiritual.  

I just love though the thought of holding the words of my great great grandfather in my hands.  Words that he actually said, wrote and preached to his parishioners and imagine the impact they had on people.  Words can be powerful more powerful than we realise sometimes.  I want to leave my words behind for my children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. 

Let them know who I was, what made me tick, what I did with my life.  But.. writing in all its capacities is what I want to do for a living.

Have my own workshop/studio

I have been creative for as long as I can remember and I loved getting out my poster paints and painting by numbers as a child;  I still remember the smell of the oil paint.   As you will know from previous posts my degree was in art and design and we touched on so many things, photography, printing, art, sculpture, video to name but a few.  I still love painting, both acrylic and watercolour and really could do with the proper space to do it in together alongside my jewellery making. Something else I would love to have a go at is making glass beads so would need space for a hot torch and kiln.  

Visit Hampton Court Palace, Tower of London and Hever Castle

I have a huge love for history particular the Tudors and Elizabeth I.  I chose history as a subject when I went to Lutterworth Grammar thinking I would be learning about kings and queens etc…  did I fuck… it was toll-puddle martyrs and sodding crop rotation it was so bloody boring.  I’ve learnt all about this period of history since leaving school.  Henry VIII’s wives their lives I find completely fascinating such strong women, Anne Bolyn and Catherine of Arogan being my favourites.  If Anne had had a son instead of Elizabeth she would not have lost her head.  Dangerous times to be around Henry.  Elizabeth I his daughter was a force to be reckoned with and I admire her greatly.

Float in the dead sea

Now this kind of goes alongside another one on the list which is learning to swim.  I would just love to feel the sensation of floating in the Dead Sea it must be so relaxing and I definitely need to learn how to swim; I did start having lessons about five years ago but had to stop when I was out of action due to an ankle injury.

Visit Pompeii, Herculaneum and Rome

Now not many know this but I nearly did archaeology at York University instead of art and design.  I love history and archaeology and now I will tell you a nerdy secret I would just love to go down on the banks of the River Thames with a metal detector and to look for artefacts.  I know the area around the Tower is actually out of bounds which is such a shame as I bet there is a lot to be found around there.  Going back to Pompeii and Herculaneium I remember learning about Pompeii at primary school and like an idiot I had nightmares for weeks afterwards thinking a volcano would suddenly appear on my street and kill everyone.  Yep, how stupid do I feel now?

Be an extra in a Hollywood movie

Now, wouldn’t that be exciting?  I’d love it if it was a Tom Cruise film.  I want to see how tall he is in real life.   Or even an Iron Man film. Or… I could be a hobbit I swear I’ve got hair on my big toe… it’s been a long while since I’ve been able to bend to look at it mind.   But I’m sure it’s a great toe if you are wondering.  

Which reminds me of one place I worked in Leicester for a short time; women were not allowed to wear shoes that showed, wait for it, “Toe Cleavage” ha ha ha can you believe that I didn’t even know it existed until I worked there.  Flipping toe cleavage…

Start a movement or cause you believe in

I’ve kind of already done this but I would like it to get bigger and better.  I started Harrogate Black Dog a couple of years ago on Facebook.  It is a group for people suffering from depression and anxiety for all sorts of reasons.  It’s a place where people are not afraid to talk about their emotions and feelings.  I know it has been very helpful and often get lovely messages letting me know how much it has been of help which makes me feel very good and glad that I set it up.

Go on a cruise

I promise this is the last one… for now at least.  I would like to learn how to swim first otherwise I would have to sleep in the lifeboat wearing armbands.   I am terrified of drowning which is not on my bucket list and I have a huge fear of deep water and being out of my depth but at the same time have a deep love for the ocean and water; work that one out.  A total contradiction.  I just love being near the sea; the smell, the taste of the air,  the breeze, feel of sand under your feet, the coolness of the water when it touches your toes.  Love it.

Well, thank you for reading about the things on my bucket list…. knowing what I am like I am sure this list will be gone back to time and time again.  

Maybe you could leave a comment about the things on your bucket list….

Tracey xXx

Poems Needed

Poems Needed

Poems needed from you guys.  I am currently collating a collection of poems with a view to publishing them both electronically and as a paperback.  

Poems about what?

The poems I am looking for are anything related to mental illnesses so depression, anxiety, PTSD, post natal depression, and everything in between.

Why this subject matter?

I have had many negative life experiences which I will go into at some future point.  I have had depression and chronic illnesses that make this situation worse so understand completely what it feels like.  I am a very creative person and this is a massive outlet and fantastic way for me to cope.  I have found over the past year writing is extremely cathartic for me and definitely the way forward.  It makes me feel proactive and not reactive.  If I can encourage others to try and do the same and it makes a difference to them like it does to me then I will be so happy to have helped someone.  

I recently published a book of poems based on failed dating situations which is currently for sale on Amazon called “Why Rainbows May Cry“.  

It gave me a huge boost and I wanted to share this feeling with others.  Putting it out there so to speak is a cathartic thing and something to be proud of and not swept under the carpet and not talked about.

What do I need?

  • Please send me your poem to my email address info@traceyward.me
  • Subscribe to this blog so that you can see more updates as and when they arise.
  • Remember to title your poem
  • Please state if you wish to put your name with your poem or wish to remain anonymous.
  • The poem must be your work and no one else’s
  • This is not a competition so please please don’t worry if you think your poem isn’t worthy because it is.  Anything written from the heart is important to both you and to me and to others.

Thank you and I look forward to hearing from you.

Warmest Wishes

Tracey xx 

Book Launch Price Offer

I am pleased to say that today I have issued a book launch price offer at a reduced price of £2.04 to the first 100 customers. A collection of poems based on my online dating experiences

Book Launch Price Offer

Book launch price offer – woo hoo – I am pleased to say that today I have  reduced the price to £2.45; for the first 100 customers.  The paper version seems to be missing page numbers but is being addressed.  You never know maybe the first ones will become collector items. Stranger things can and do happen especially in my life.

https://www.amazon.com/Tracey-Ward/e/B072BBH6LV?ref_=pe_1724030_132998060

You can also click on the image to take you to the relevant page.

The link for my Amazon author page is above.  The book “why rainbows may cry” is a collection of poems.  These are based on my recent dating experiences and cover dating, love, lust and loss.   

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Me and my book cover

The poems in this book were never intended to be published.  Writing them was a cathartic necessity for me and a way out.  A way to express and make sense of things.  Most are about people off dating websites which will be another book soon.   

I consider myself to be intelligent and yet managed to get conned by people I met and a couple I didn’t.

Some I have omitted because they can be a book in themselves and will be something else for me to work on.   Wow not enough hours in the day 

Dusty Pillows Burlesque Performer

Dusty Pillows Burlesque Performer

Let me introduce you to my burlesque alter ego, the lovely and gorgeous “Dusty Pillows”.

Now Dusty was born approximately 4 years ago.  After finishing a relationship which left me emotionally drained and with very low self esteem I decided I needed to do something to rectify that.  I needed to do something that was completely out of my comfort zone.

Now what did I do I imagine you are thinking to yourself; well I took burlesque lessons and it went from there.  I had 3 acts back then one of which was an elderly cleaning/tea lady.  This was a comedy act with a fair bit of audience participation.   

Now I can also imagine ok not bad but you don’t know me.  If someone had told me twenty years ago that I would be performing on a stage and twirling tassels too I would have choked from laughing so much there and then.  

This is because I am a fairly quiet, laid back, homely person.  But when I was in character I became something completely different and had a lot of fun playing her.  She is still there under the skin so I think I might let her out occasionally to do some product reviews for you.  

I will attach a little photo of Dusty so you know what you are letting yourself in for. 

burlesque performer Dusty Pillows
Dusty Pillows

As you can see I think she would be particularly good at make up reviews and tutorials.

Dusty Pillows
Burlesque Show
Dusty Pillows
Dusty Cleaning the stage ready to perform

17 Common Symptoms of Fibromyalgia

17 common symptoms of fibromyalgia. I have been diagnosed with this chronic condition. I had not heard of it before the diagnosis and when I tell people they also do not know a lot about the condition. I felt compelled to make this post to help people understand what it feels like as sometimes to look at someone with this condition you wouldn’t know the constant torment they live with every day.

17 Common Symptoms of Fibromyalgia

As I have mentioned elsewhere I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia sometime within the last two years and this is a list of 17 common symptoms of fibromyalgia.  

My Cause

It means that my deep sleep is not adequate and good enough to refresh my mind and my body.  Below are some of the common symptoms of fibromyalgia.  The symptoms can change and also can vary in intensity.  

My added complications

On top of fibromyalgia I also have a hiatus hernia and GORD, diabetes Type II, tinnitus, scoliosis and a trapped nerve affecting my right hip due to the scoliosis.

 

Symptoms

  1. Fibromyalgia pain can be head to toe and felt over the entire body. It can be a deep, sharp, dull, throbbing or aching pain that is felt in the muscles, tendons and ligaments around the joints. It can be described as aching, burning, stabbing or tender.
  2. Fatigue. Aside from pain, the other main symptom is fatigue. This is not just normal tiredness. Some describe it as being similar to the symptoms of flu. Others compare it to working long hours and missing a lot of sleep. You can feel tired when you wake up, too fatigued to start a relatively easy task, too tired to work, have sex or to exercise.
  3. Unrefreshing sleep. While people with fibromyalgia may fall asleep without difficulty, their sleep isn’t good. During sleep, people with fibromyalgia have constant bursts of brain activity similar to the activity that occurs in the brain when they are awake. Tests in sleep laboratories have shown they experience interruptions in deep sleep and as a result they don’t get enough deep sleep and their body can’t rejuvenate itself.
  4. Morning stiffness. Studies have shown that more than 75% of people diagnosed with fibromyalgia feel stiffness in the morning, the same type of stiffness people feel with many types of arthritis, especially rheumatoid or inflammatory arthritis. Some people say that the morning stiffness lasts only a few minutes, but in general, it is usually very noticeable for more than 15 to 20 minutes each day. In some cases it will last for hours, and in others it will be present all day.
  5. Painful trigger or tender points. These trigger points are not random they are in predictable places on the body. For a person with fibromyalgia, pressing the trigger points is extremely painful.
  6. Depression and anxiety. These symptoms could be the result of living with constant pain and fatigue, but it is also possible that anxiety and depression may actually be a part of fibromyalgia, just like the pain.
  7. Extreme sensitivity to pain (hyperalgesia). With this even the slightest touch can be painful or you may experience far more pain than the injury warrants. For example, stubbing your toe may be excruciating.
  8. Memory and concentration problems. This is also known as ‘fibro fog‘.
  9. Headaches. These are common in about 70% of people with fibromyalgia. They can be caused by tightness and contraction of the muscles of the neck, which results in tension-type headaches.
  10. Painful periods. Unusually painful menstrual cramps occur in 30% to 40% or more of women with fibromyalgia.
  11. Irritable bowel syndrome. IBS is a digestive disorder. It causes pain and bloating in the stomach and can lead to constipation or diarrhoea, abdominal gas and feeling sick, all symptoms found in roughly 40% to 70% of patients with fibromyalgia. Acid reflux or gastro-oesophageal reflux disease ( GORD) also occurs with the same frequency.
  12. Swelling, numbness and tingling. This occurs in hands, arms, feet and legs and is known as paraesthesia. These sensations, which may be constant, or may last just a few minutes, are felt by more than half of people with fibromyalgia.
  13. Restless leg syndrome. This can be a problem, especially at night.
  14. Dry mouth. Around 25% of people with fibromyalgia say they have dryness in their mouth, nose or eyes. This is sometimes caused by Sjögren’s syndrome – when the salivary glands and tear glands do not produce enough saliva. This loss of lubrication can increase the risk of infections.
  15. Raynaud’s syndrome. This is said to be present in 25% to 50% of people with fibromyalgia. Raynaud’s syndrome, also known as Raynaud’s phenomenon, consists of spasms of the small arteries of the fingers and sometimes the toes, brought on by exposure to cold or stress. They become quite pale, cold or blue and painful but will return to normal when the hands or feet are warmed.
  16. Being too hot or too cold. People with fibromyalgia are often unable to properly regulate their body temperature.
  17. Sensitivity to environmental factors – such as changes in the weather, bright lights, noise, smoke, smells, medications and some foods.Remember if you have fibromyalgia that the condition may not be responsible for all your symptoms. For example, an infection may be why you’re having urinary difficulties and other medical problems can bring on headaches. So, if you’re not sure what the cause is it’s important to seek medical advice.

Manchester Arena Terror Attack

The appalling atrocity that hit Manchester Arena last night. A suicide bomber sets off his bomb killing himself and killing 22 people including an 8 year old girl. IS have now confirmed it was them behind this attack.

Manchester Arena Terror Attack

Terror attack in Manchester Arena I am so sad to be writing about this.  I am in a complete state of shock as everyone else in the UK waking up to this in morning.  

Condolences

First of all I would like to say that my thoughts and prayers are with those killed or hurt at the arena and their friends and families.  I would also like to say how fantastic the people of Manchester are and the help they have been giving to both victims and the police and paramedics.  

People of Manchester

Members of the public driving people back to their homes, providing food, shelter, amongst other things.

United

Terrorists will never win in this country.  

The one thing this country does when faced with this kind of atrocity is that it brings the best out of us out of its people.    

United we stand and united we fall.

Missing People Helpline:  0161 856 9400

Absence Apologies

Apologies for my absence but I have had a combination of things to deal with all stressful. Now I am back and posting.

Absence Apologies

My sincere apologies for my absence and for not writing sooner but I have been quite poorly.  I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia which I will go into more detail with in future posts.  As well as being poorly I have been fighting to get my PIP reinstated which thankfully I have just done with the help of my local MP.

There has been a lot of things happening during the past couple of weeks; the start of a book, illness, a date – yes another one; I’ve got back on the saddle so to speak and various other things which have taken up a lot of my time.  

Second Date

Tonight is second date night and we are off to see the new Alien film which I will give my opinion on tomorrow.  I have been waiting a long time to see this and very excited.

Short Romance

online dating is the pits. It seems to be full of time wasters and people who are from a different planet to the rest of us. This is definitely a story for the next book

Short Romance

Short romance or what.   Shocked is an understatement did not see that one coming at all.  That was very short and sweet.  Just when you think you have found someone genuine, kind, caring, loving, affectionate and honest you get dumped by text out of the blue…. with the old faithful it is not you it is me… please I mean really?

I actually feel I am allergic to men.  Talk about timing with the book launch.  I had better crack on with this years and he can be the subject of the first poem. Think that is the least I can do… and to all my fellow dumpees out there.. what can I say but it is their loss.  Onwards and upwards